I'm tired.
mentally and physically tired.
tired of wearing layers of masks, tired of smiling when I feel like screaming, tired of being used by everyone around, be it friend or foe...
tired of living in my head.

tired of being labelled as average, plain, overweight ; reliable and trustworthy and cannon fodder.
tired of everyone seeing only the shell but not the ghost inside of it.

I want to smash all the mirrors until all treacherous and distorted reflections are gone and the only thing left would be the real me. whomever or whatever that is.
but won't.
too afraid.